I just ignore the fact it's monday

Well, Monday was just like part of the weekend, as usual, and we had Brendan here, fixing things. So now we have new uplights in the front room, working lights in the bathrooms, and Fergus's room, and mended curtain poes in both the childrens' rooms. We had Dave, the fireplace man here, who I am well in with since I gave him something on Freecycle which he was well chuffed with.
I still haven't got a clue what's going on with the house. Today I have been looking at kit houses, and my usual unfruitful trawl through Rightmove. I know it's not the only place to find houses, but I figure that anyone who hasn't got the time or energy to do up a house to sell is going to go through one of the local estate agents, all of whom are listed on Rightmove. Brendan agreed in principle that it is worth doing up the fireplace, cost permitting, we should get a quote soon. (which is a bit of a turnaround from yesterday's vibe, I know).
The house I was buying is now under offer to a cash buyer with no chain, although I am so much further down the line, surely it would be better to sell it to me if i can sell in the next week or 2. Not that sure if i still want it, though Kelly has now bought her house just up the road, which is a big bonus, as she is potentially a home edder (she has already missed the mainstream school admission at age 4 and is a bit undecided). Of course, the house is also within spitting distance of a school, though.
The buyers of my house are still wanting to buy it and are still hoping their buyers will be able to buy theres, so that's a bit of news. I should know by the end of the week whether its on or off. I had kind of given up on that one, really, but you never know.
I shifted a few more boxes out of the way, or just around the place really, into cupboards. I'm a bit half- hearted about this as it's so uncertain what's going on.
I've done so badly at trying not to see Dave: I had to get out of the house this afternoon (rabbit food, desperately needed, you know...) and went round for a cup of tea and a chat. I just miss him as a friend to talk to when I don't see him. I wasn't feeling so broken hearted today so it was OK. Is this the slippery slope I'm always sliding down?
Anyway, it was nice to have all the children here today, including Meg, who I have been helping with the finishing touches to her final show work. I think she's cracked it and I'm so pleased. Last night she was so dispondent and panicky I gave her some rescue remedy. today she just wanted somebody to be with her while she worked an supply her with tea and fags. She's gone off to stay at her friend's so she can make an early start for college in the morning.
I actually enjoyed putting the children to bed tonight. We read a few stories and had a bit of a laugh and giggle together, so they were happy. I think they are getting a bit more used to my deafness, though it sometimes irritates them. Joy didn't really want to go to school tomorrow: that's how good today was- and the weekend with me? They played with the baby rabbits and dolls houses, and baby rabbits in dolls houses. Joy worked out 15 x 15 in her head, but then couldn't quite remember how she did it. She was reading workbooks in bed this morning. I think they were from school.
I've still been feeling quite tired but the cold seems to be clearing up a bit. O, where is my house? my new life! I have come a long way in the last 6 months, I must remember that, but I still feel a long long way from home. Sometimes I catch glimses of my new life, like a dream, and I want to hold onto it, so I know what I am aiming towards, but it is so fleeting. Maybe I should do one of those mind maps or some kind of visuallisation thingy, or meditate, or something. All I can see is the sun shining through a window and loads of happiness. maybe I should be a bit clearer about what I want.